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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Perspective

I’ve been reading a blog over the last couple weeks that I had found out about. It’s the blog of a man whose wife had a baby and then she died 27 hours later. A terrible, horrible thing to happen. I cry every time I read it. A tragic, yet beautiful story of this man taking care of his newborn daughter while dealing with loosing the love of his life. I actually hate to call it a story since it’s not a tale but someone’s actual life, happening right this very minute. Kind of like the silly phrase “IRL” (in real life) on a blog, because isn’t it all real? This man’s wife was absolutely beautiful. Gorgeous blond who’s outgoing personality seeps out of every picture he posts of her. I tell you, whenever I start to feel all sorry for myself about how my day is going or how terrible my kids are behaving or how I just can’t stand my husband anymore that day, I remember Matt and how I should be damn grateful for every minute of my life. Please go read about Matt, Liz and Madeline. It will certainly give you some perspective. Start here, then continue on.

Monday, May 12, 2008

The weekend

Don't you love when you make a plan and everything just falls into place?  Especially with two little kids?  Man, I've been really productive today.  Actually, I've been really productive for the last few days.  It's been a good day and the weekend went pretty well too.

Saturday

It was raining all day and cold out.  Junebug woke up and was just so sensitive about everything.  I knew something was wrong with him because he was just all out of sorts.  He even fell asleep on me snuggling on the couch before lunch which was just not like him.  After he woke up, he felt hot and sweaty.  I took his temperature and it was 101.  I got him some lunch and then some Motrin (clicking on those ads right?) and thought I'd try and lay him down for a nap.  I wasn't sure if he'd go for it since he took a little nap already but he was feeling so awful and just laid there moaning and he did take a nap - for three hours!  We had to wake him up because I didn't want him sleeping any longer than that.  He seemed to perk up a little bit after his nap and then Mr. D. took Junebug and Ladybug with him to pick up Mother's Day cards.  Apparently Junebug had a little breakdown in the garage when they got back because he wanted to ride in "Dada's Car!"  So Mr. D. brought Ladybug back in so he could go for a ride and they picked up dinner on the way back.  I had been cleaning all day getting ready for Sunday (more in a minute).  But both Mr. D. and I also felt kind of cruddy so there must have been some little bug that went through the house that day.  We all felt much better by the end of the day though.  I got so much housecleaning done, I even swept the floor and swiffered!  I love the feel of a clean floor on bare feet.  Unfortunately Ladybug had a rough night that night, waking up several times and then getting up at 5 AM for the day on Sunday.

Sunday

Five AM wake up call.  Way to let mom sleep in on Mother's Day little girl!  Mr. D. did go get her and hang with her after I nursed her but I really didn't sleep well after that.  I got up for good at 7:30 to shower and get ready for the day.  Then I grabbed Junebug's clothes (he'd taken off for downstairs before I could change him) and got Ladybug dressed.  Once breakfast was finished up I got to open up my Mother's Day cards and gift.  I got a digital picture frame!  I love it.  I've been wanting one for about a year so I was stoked to get this.  Explains why it took an hour to "wrap" my gift (he was loading pictures on it).  So Sunday at church was baby dedication* day so we were doing that with Ladybug and then having family over after for lunch.  Everything went really well, save for a few hiccups.  You know, I just love people who think they know better than you concerning your own child.  Like family members who won't give you your crying child back because they think they're some baby whisperer and will magically soothe them when all they really want is Mama.  They might be family but to a baby they're a complete stranger right now.  Anyway, family descended, ate all the food, left the dirty dishes and then flew the coop.

Today

Got up at 7:00 (man I hope Ladybug learns to sleep in one day!).  Nursed her and got her settled then went up and got Junebug up.  I swear that boy loves to sleep, wish they were both like that!  We all had breakfast and played for a little bit.  Then Junebug promptly brought me his socks, shoes and jacket and said "Go outside!  Go outside!"  So we went outside.  But it was too darn cold and windy so I decided we'd go to the play area inside at McDonald's.  First I wanted to stop by Kohl's to see if I could find something for him to wear for his 2 year pictures and I had a coupon.  I did find a really cute outfit but they didn't have it in his size.  I found something for Ladybug to wear next year, very pretty.  And I bought some Matchbox cars for Junebug since I had the coupon and all.  Then we went over to play.  I went through the drive thru first and got food (easier to carry a bag instead of trying to balance a tray with two kids - a tip for the rest of you).  First he wouldn't play because there weren't any other kids there.  Then when some did show up, he was being naughty, shoving the big kids.  He's always gentle with little ones though.  And he only misbehaves like that there.  I think it's from all those kids that come there and their parents don't discipline them and Junebug sees them doing bad things and copies it.  Ugh, so irritating.  So we ended up leaving because of his behavior and not listening to me.  He's so hilarious and clueless.  He's waving "bye!" and smiling to people as we leave, not understanding the reason we're leaving.  We get home and I see the mailbox overflowing with stuff.  Two very good friends sent things in the mail.  My friend Meghan sent me a Mother's Day card and a picture of their family - so cute! (Meghan - you're so sweet, I don't know how you remember to send cards and gifts all the time with 3 kids!  You're my idol.)  And then my blog friend AM sent her son's birth announcement - the picture was so sweet.  I also got some freebies in the mail (two kinds of coffee, face scrub and kids disposable potty training pants).  Then I decided to clean the fish tank once I got the kids down for naps.  Before I started I picked up a bag sitting in front of the tank and one of those nasty millipede bugs goes scurrying around.  ICK!!!!!!!!  I killed that bastard.  Took Junebug's shoe and just beat the hell out of it.  Those things are so gross.  Cleaning the tank is a HUGE undertaking considering it is like 40 or 50 gallons.  It usually takes 1 1/2 hours if Mr. D. is helping me.  I got it done in 2!  It looks really good and except for the heat tube that is now broken, I was able to put everything back together again without any help!  Go me!

Hope you all had a great weekend!

*From wiki:  In Holiness, many Baptist, and some other churches, a ritual known as Dedication or Infant Dedication supplements or replaces infant baptism. However, unlike baptism, the rite is centered upon the parents, who dedicate the child to God and vow to raise him/her in a God-fearing home. Although Dedication often occurs at the same age as infant baptism, it is not considered a replacement for baptism nor is it considered salvific for the child.  Believer's baptism is more prevalent in Christian traditions which maintain that there is a state of innocency from birth to the age of accountability (if the believer, due to mental or emotional disability, is not likely to gain the ability to judge the morality of his or her actions, this state of innocency persists for life).

Thursday, May 08, 2008

The freaks come out at night

Well yesterday was much better.  Ladybug was a completely different child.  Operation "no nursing at night" went well last night too.  She woke up at her normal time but Mr. D. said she only cried for about 30 seconds and then babbled for 45 minutes before falling back asleep.  And then she woke up at her normal 7 AM time.  So, yeah, really good!  That to me says she certainly doesn't need to nurse at night.  And she's sitting on the floor with her brother playing nicely.

And guess what?  My daughter can clap her hands when I request it!  I know, big deal, most 8 1/2 month olds can probably do that.  But this is the first thing she's done on that level of understanding speech.  I love that she is interacting, it only gets better from here!

Last night I had to run to the grocery store and also get a Mothers Day card.  I swear that the mental institution must have let everyone out last night.  There were so many strange people out.  People driving like idiots and the teenage boy who actually hit on me.  I mean, come on!  He was the checkout boy and the transaction was complete.  I was reading a sign posted and all of a sudden he says, "I get off at 9:00".  I was like, um, k?  Then he says it again, all sly like, "I get off at 9:00".  Uh huh.  At this point I'm getting weirded out so I say that it's almost time for him to go then.  He says "Oh yeah" and I try and scuttle away while mumbling to him thank you.  He calls after me to have a good night.  I mean, I was so befuddled by this teenager.  On the surface it could purely have been just conversation but he seriously had his mojo going on.  Then I start to pull into the driveway and I see this woman pushing a stroller.  It was about 9:15 at this point and I can't imagine someone going for a stroll with a baby in the dark.  My headlights hit her and I see the same freaky lady I saw over the weekend.  This crazy lady was pushing her full grown "Lassie" dog in a stroller.  Mr. D. and I saw her this weekend doing it too in the middle of the day.  This wasn't one of those pocket book dogs, it's huge!  And, she lives like 3 houses down from us because I saw the stroller sitting out in the driveway one day when I took a walk with the kids.  Awesome, I live next to crazy people.

My allergies are KILLING me.  I see they now sell Zyrtec over the counter and kellymom says it's ok to take while breastfeeding so I'm going to have to go get some.  I am about to die.  I used to take it when it was prescription only and it was the only thing that seemed to work for me.  The only other cure for my allergies is to be pregnant.  No, seriously it is!  I've been pregnant the last two springs and never had an issue at all.  Now that I'm not this year, they're back to the way they were before.  Strange I tell you.

I swear there was something else I wanted to tell you all but I can't remember!  Guess I better get my mom's card in the mail and hope it gets there by Saturday (it won't).

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Hell hath no furry like a pissed off baby

Me:  Where are you?
Mr. D.:  About 5 minutes away, where are you?
Me:  In Hell.
Mr. D.:  Oh, I've been there a few times.
Me:  Oh yeah, well I LIVE there.

Oh yes people, it has been that kind of week weeks.  Currently the little girl is in her room screaming, and has been for 45 minutes.  She's fine as long as she's being held and then you set her down and BOOMSCREAMCRYBLOODYMURDER!  She's got to pass out soon from sheer exhaustion.  We've been going in every 5-10 minutes and gave her motrin and Orajel so there's not much else I can really do for her.  If it's another damn ear infection I will just die!  This may not be everyone's situation, but I'm telling you, my daughter is a heck of a lot more high maintenance than my son ever was/is.  I was so spoiled with #1!

If you by chance saw the heavens part and heard angels singing last night that would be because Junebug ate macaroni and cheese for the first time ever.  This kid has refused macaroni and cheese since I was able to offer it to him.  We try every couple months or so and he gives us a firm and decided NO! when a bowl of mac and cheese is offered.  Why am I so excited about him eating mac and cheese?  Well (1) it's another meal I can throw into the rotation of the only 4 meals he'll eat and (2) as Mr. D. puts it, it's a gateway food.  He had an issue with the noodles so now that he'll eat them, I can try and get him to eat other foods with noodles.

1 hour of screaming continues....please hold while I go pat a baby....

No really, she's got to pass out soon, right?

Speaking of motrin, I've got the Blogher ads up now to cover my costs.  Do they sell vats of that stuff?  So please feel free to come visit my site (instead of just reading it in an rss feeder) and click on the ads if you would?  I'm thinking I need to re-do my blog design soon too.  With Mr. D.'s help of course.

Having two children is tough.  Particularly the two under two set.  I'd never lie and tell someone that it wasn't.  There are days that go so smoothly that I think this whole motherhood thing is a piece of cake.  And then there are most days where I'm just surviving until bedtime and praying that that goes smoothly.  I've just finished up cycle number 3 since they have started back up.  And it's so funny, but each month that goes by, I wipe my brow and say "whew, made it another month not pregnant."  Not like we're being irresponsible or playing a game of roulette.  But I think I've actually been scarred in someway that makes me feel a great sense of relief every month my period shows up.  I tell you, it is so strange to go from trying so hard to have a baby and it taking awhile to having a sorta surprise pregnancy when your hard fought baby is only 6 months old.  Kind of throws me for a loop.

Well, she stopped crying and now I have the insane urge to go check on her.  But at the same time I'm afraid of waking her up!

Monday, May 05, 2008

SON OF A!!!

OMG.  I just wrote a nice post out and it went poof.

I'm too mad now to recreate.  UGH!!!  I WASTED 45 MINUTES OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Fine, here's a quick synopsis of what I said: 

  • Love the DQ Strawberry Cheesequake blizzard, go try it
  • Hate text messaging
  • Hate giant, stupid gun pretending kids at McDonald's
  • Got new tv, sold old tv, need to get new component stand
  • Non-napping children drive me bonkers
  • And one other thing that now I can't remember

Damn.  I think I need a nap.

Friday, May 02, 2008

Back in the stirrups again

Wow people.  It has been one heck of a week.  Let me say that again.  ONE HECK OF A WEEK.

Tuesday I had some appointments scheduled so Mr. D. stayed home so he could be with the kids while I went to those.

I had a hair appointment after noon.  It was horrible.  The stylist I used to see all the time moved away so now I'm going to the lady I had seen when we first moved here.  She's good but she was just a pill this time.  I got there about 5 minutes early, totally not expecting her to be ready yet but I figured if she was then she'd appreciate that at least I wasn't late.  Also, I want to point out that I received a call from her the day before reminding me of my appointment and the time.  So I get there a few minutes early, check in and sit down to read the paper.  I finish the paper and move onto a People magazine.  I finish the People magazine.  By now she is 20 minutes late for my appointment and I'm starting to get nervous because I have another appointment to be at in 45 minutes.  I go to the desk and start to ask how far behind she is when I see her walk by and she gives me this horrible look like, "What are you doing?  How dare you!"  I just ask her if she's running behind because I have another appointment to go to soon and she rudely replies that she's ready for me.  O-k.  So I go sit down and she asks what I want done.  I tell her that I want to donate my hair and give her a print out of the "rules" from the website, but for now just a trim because I don't have quite enough yet.  I was going to do it through Pantene's Beautiful Lengths.  I've recently used a wash-out color on my hair but the website says that's ok since it's semi-permanent.  But then she starts telling me how I can't do it through that program and I have to do it through Locks of Love which is who "they" use.  Well, that means I have to grow out enough to cut 10 inches off for Locks of Love instead of 8 inches for the Pantene one.  It's already driving me nuts and I have about 2 inches to go before I can cut 8 off.  Then she says "Well since you're short on time, we're going to skip the scalp massage".  Oh fine.  You waste 2o minutes of my appointment and I don't get the scalp massage??  How about we skip you putting all that product crap in my hair and give me the damn 3 minute scalp massage?  Of course I didn't say that 'cause I'm a big chicken.  She's wetting down my hair (with really hot water) and then tells me that she's going to use a men's shampoo on me.  What?  What???  I say "Men's shampoo?" and she's like "Yeah, both you and Mr. D. have very oily hair so I figure I could get you using the same shampoo".  Um, first off, I don't have really oily hair.  I only wash it every other day because it will dry out if I wash it more than that.  Now Mr. D. definitely has oily hair and he knows it.  He's an Alaskan driller's jackpot.  But me?  No.  And besides, we already use the same shampoo - Aveda Scalp Benefits which we purchase at her salon so I'm not really sure why she was doing that.  And honestly, I don't want to smell like a man!  I'm a woman and I want to have a nice female scent.  If my husband wants to use a man's shampoo then that's fine but I DON'T WANT TO!  Anyway, she was really short with me.  I know most of you are like, duh, don't go to her again but here's my dilema: She's one of Mr. D.'s clients for his computer business and this is a small town and (1) there's not a lot of options and (2) small town means hairstylists gossip gets around and she'd know if I went to someone else.  I don't want to affect Mr. D.'s business with her, you know?  I'm just hoping she was having a bad day and decided to take it out on me but if she was to be like that again I just couldn't go back.  I don't spend our hard earned money to have that kind of visit.

As the title suggests, I was back at "Ye Old OB/GYN" later that day.  Oh sure, it was just for my yearly check up but as soon as I walked into the clinic I was instantly short of breath, transported back to the days of nervous pregnancy and infertility.  I just don't know what it is about that place but I can't set foot inside without practically hyperventilating.  It certainly doesn't help that the same receptionist that has been there since my 3 1/2 year stint of visits was yet again sitting behind the desk and could still remember my name and address - and I haven't even been there since my 6 week post partum visit! 

After my name was called I was weighed (still less than before I got pregnant with #1 - oh YEAH!) and then she measured my height.  Apparently I have shrunk because she said I was only 4' 11".  I just don't believe that.  I mean, yeah, I'm short but not THAT short (shut up Mr. D!).  Then we went back and did some questions and blood pressure (120/70 - perfect).  Then she had me do some busy work in the form of a questionnaire from what I can assume while I waited for the doctor to come in for the consultation part.  It didn't take long at all and after he greeted me I made sure to give him a chuckle by telling him I wasn't pregnant this time.  He told me he was wondering.  He asked me the same questions I had just spent 5 minutes filling out on the form and then he left for me to disrobe.  First up was the breast exam - oh joy!  Not.  The pap and pelvic exam went just about as fun as those things tend to go.  What was interesting was that they didn't have to send off for the mid-evil metal speculum like they normally do.  I may not have vaginally birthed any babies but apparently being pregnant with two of them changed something down there.  That was pretty much it - wam, bam, thank you mam.

So my Tuesday was not much fun.  Then Ladybug has been so terrible.  She was screaming so much over tooth pain - I took her to the doctor on Monday since I didn't know if it was her ears or not but they looked good so I wasted another $98....sigh. Well she had a really good day on Thursday, generally smiley and content.  Then today, she has thrown up a few times.  I could tell she wasn't feeling well because she's been so quiet and I could just see the look on her face.  Poor thing.  I don't know what's worse - nonstop screaming or throwing up.  No, no...throwing up is much worse.  I get really frustrated with her but I know it's not her fault.  And then I feel guilty because what if something is really wrong with her and she has some terrible disease!  I know, my imagination is running wild but she has been sick more than she's been healthy in her short 8 months and I can't help but wonder if something is wrong with her.  After she threw up on Mr. D. and Junebug this afternoon she felt 5 pounds lighter.  And she's been pooping a lot (thanks to the latest antibiotic she no longer has constipation - I'm wondering how long that'll last now that she's done on the medicine).  And she's so tiny to begin with!  I don't think there's anyway she'll hit 20 pounds by the time she's a year old.  I get so frustrated when people talk about her size.  I know she's little, she's petite.  And she's also been sick A LOT so that has bound to have caused some issues too.  The doctor doesn't seem to have a problem with her and she's growing on her own time line.  I just wish she'd get healthy.  I'm so sad about it.  And frustrated.  And exhausted!

Oh, and in case you didn't get it, in my last post I was hinting at the fact that she has started the beginning stages of crawling.  She can scoot around pretty good.  The funny part is that she doesn't pick her head up to see where she's going yet.  She's such a sweetheart when she's not feeling horrible.  She loves to snuggle which is so nice.  She twirls my hair in her hands, she loves to do that.  And she rubs her own head and runs her fingers through her hair when she's nursing, so sweet.

I haven't bragged on Junebug in awhile.  He's growing up so much and he is soooo smart (well, don't we all think our kids are?)  He talks in sentences and is getting very independent now.  Lately at lunch I will give him a bowl of applesauce and you know how it collects all over the sides?  I'll ask him does he want me to help him scrape it down and he says, very clearly, "NO Mama STOP!  I DO IT!"  It is so cute to see him want to be independent.  He knows about 13 different shapes and most of his colors.  He counts and he can identify letters too.  He amazes me each day.  Of course there's some bad too.  With all this independence is a fierce little attitude and temper tantrums.  I believe we've entered into that thing they call Terrible Two's (just a little ahead of schedule).

Here's to hoping the weekend is much nicer than the week has been.  (Although they are calling for snow tomorrow.  IN MAY.  Have I told you all how much I hate this state?)

Monday, April 28, 2008

Yo-Baby

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Downward Dog

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Child's Pose

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Leg lifts....wait, that's not yoga!

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Awww crap!  Neither is that!

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